Letter To Invite Guest Of Honour

... Seija

For some reason whenever I see a death in a series or a movie I'm always sad, but it must be because it's that afternoon that I wanted to write about it. Most people do not understand why it hurts so much losing a loved one, for there you understand, but do not understand how you can check both of life. It is definitely something that you did not know until it happens, is impossible to understand what someone is not seeing smaller ground ue NEVER happened to you, unless you understand that it never really means never. Is that human beings are accustomed to repeat things and are remediable, eg if you do badly on a test that day may feel too bad, but it is a passing feeling, when you go back in time 10 years ago you will not feel bad about that test, but it going to take as a fad. That is why it so difficult to understand that that person will never be with you, you'll never be able to hug, or just listen to his voice. All these things inevitably forget, lost in time. And that's the scariest, knowing that all the things one is accustomed to that person, who at the time in which one of you are common, they cease to be, and never again will return to be.

I remember one of the things qeu helped me to overcome the death of my father was an anime (yes, my freaky side comes up at the time), was ita Bokura ga when Yano (the character which is leading the bride died, Nana) asks the sister of his ex-girlfriend, how do you recover from the death of someone? She replied that just thinking qeu all the memories you have of that person are like dreams, are something that will never happen again in reality. And that's when I realized (though it took 8 years to understand = P) that one of the largest problems recover from the death of a loved one is that you refuse to understand that these things happened and will never happen again, you tend to expect that person again and everything returns to be as before. There is always that illusion. It's hard, but the reality is that only losing someone very important is when you get it.

Anyway, I wanted to vent a bit .... should not have read the manga XD, or at least not so late XD.

kisses and if you read it, thanks = D.